Putting the pressure on much harder now
To return again and again
Just let the red rain splash you
Let the rain fall on your skin
I come to you, defences down
With the trust of a child
-Peter Gabriel, "Red Rain"
You make me want to see the film, too. Without seeing it, I'm thinking that sometimes, a fatalism develops in children (or adults) when they've been so hurt, for so long... fatalistic blind trusting is on one extreme. Sitting in bitterness, closed off is the other extreme. Floating in the middle--whom can I trust? can I even trust, and how?
How much time did that woman spend with those children, I wonder? How many prayers were involved, I wonder too.
Trust requires so much, even beyond time and prayer... Healthy trust is like a weight-bearing bone: so slow to build up in the first place, but as a child, you aren't even thinking about your bones growing, you're just using them, freely, without pain. But the right nutrients are needed all along to make bone more resilient; like bone, trust is easily shattered if its "density" has been compromised. Bone is easily broken even if it's strong, given a strike at the wrong angle or with traumatic force. Like weight-bearing bone, trust is difficult to mend, and impossible to mend well without adequate rest and care given. You might even need someone else's help to reset it before it can mend properly.
Of course, without ever trying the bone, you'll never know whether you've been healing... but the first steps on a still-healing bone are awkward and painful. So go gently. |