Yeah, I agree with Trizia. As haunting as my past is regarding school, I need to know that even then, I wasn't the slacker I believed myself to be (hmm, let me think, who was it that was telling me that last Sunday?). I am aware of the problems I have with school, my ADD, my manic-depression. Though this doesn't mean I get to skip gingerly through the problems I had before, it at least means I go beyond the identity of stupid and lazy. There is depth and goodness even in my high school career. Now to just pound it into my head. Anyway, you have focus now. The goal is not just to get through the classes so you can get your piece of paper for work. You are looking at bettering yourself, teaching others, testing yourself and your knowledge. I am worried about all your astresses as well as the distresses you may have associated with them. I think, though, that despite how your academic career looks (though it's far better than mine, I'm sure), you're going to wow the profs with your work, your learning, and your gentleness. A few good grades thrown in wouldn't hurt, but I believe God is in this so it WILL work out. Now just to step into it . . .
I just got my request for financial aid back, and they don't seem to like my current 1.5 gpa (despite the fact that I'm up to "probation," from "problem case - must review." Apparently, that isn't considered good progress. Go figure. But, in graciousness, I get probationary financial aid if I take a workshop and get at least c's in all my classes.
Trizia, it sounds great. Knowing someone in the class helps a lot, too. It'll be cool to watch you step out into your areas of study. I think you also have a lot to offer those young and "wrinkle-free, model-quality" faces. I look forward to having you at the study nights. :)
I'm feeling a lot better. I've finally been sleeping all night, napping a few times a day, etc. I'm now rested. I still am intimidated by my classes, as well as the general atmosphere. It feels like a mall, but with even more pretense. I'm not sure what that means. I also have the joy of "artistic" teachers. Which is to say weird, spacey, strangely demanding on which art supplies to use (having eaten of the tree of knowledge of good and evil art supplies), and, for some reason, they are all really bad spellers. Bad spelling annoys me. It goes against my upbringing. In a student I wouldn't mind much, but a prof? Don't they, like, go to school for masters and doctrates and stuff? Yay! It's Friday and most of my homework is already done for Monday. :) Now to just go spend a fortune on books so I can finish the rest of it . . . Come on, financial aid . . . ! |