Prayer 5 (a July of Blue Moons)
7-31-04
I will choose today to believe that the full moon does truly exist,
and that it will rise today across the earth regardless of my present mood or circumstance, regardless even of the coverings of cumulus clouds that will cover it over into darkness.
I will choose today to believe in Your grace and divinity,
that you have created each atom and building block of reality to be righteous and good in Your sight.
I will choose today to believe in heaven and hell,
that though I sometimes differ, I believe in your might, and my eyes will assume something beyond their immediate sight, that it has impact and affects even my daily life.
I will choose today to believe in long paths walked in this life,
that though it seems manic as a roller coaster or ADD, and though sometimes I crash both physically and mentally, I choose to believe that my eventual course will stay steady and true to Your will, that I will finish the race begun.
I will choose today to believe in Your honor and Your glory,
that those songs, hymns, and poems written in thanksgiving and praise through these centuries of Your love of my ancestors and my brothers are true and good, that you will find beauty and love in our efforts at worship.
I will choose today to believe that Your Word is true,
that reality is not concentric to my own concept of what is real, but that You are greater, that Your Word will make better standards than I could ever know myself.
I will choose today to believe in the sacrifice of Your Son,
You felt a love so strong for me that You have chosen to walk through pain, temptation, and humanity to rescue me from Your enemy, that You have decided I was well-worth the effort.
I will choose today to believe You are honored in me,
that regardless of what I might do, You are proud simply because of who I am as Your child, that all I have to offer this world or Your church is myself, and I have no need to pretend I am anything other than You made me to be.
I will choose today to believe I have a strength in You,
that I can fight with Your strength, that I will have power and impact on this world, and my effort is good and, too, that I will fight to offer freedom for Your disciples.
I will choose today to believe in Your protection,
that You are my shield from the demonic slings, arrows, and schemes, and that I am not alone inside this place but You control legions of angelic warrior which may stand at my side, and that these brothers and sisters in Christ are also strong warriors, that if it is Your will, we will move mountains together, Satan is small mischief compared to Your strength.
I will choose today to praise You no matter what.
I will choose today to praise You for Your faithfulness in my own life.
I will choose today to praise You for Your faithfulness in the life of my community.
I will choose today to praise You for Your love.
I will choose today to praise You for Your passions.
I will choose today to praise You as a strong lion.
I will choose today to praise You as a gentle lamb.
I will choose today to praise You in corporate worship.
I will choose today to praise You in silent prayer alone with You.
I will choose today to praise You in my conversation with those who would know Your love.
I will choose today to praise You for Your untold glories that I have yet to comprehend.
I choose today to walk in faith that today is a day that You have woven,
that You have purpose for me within it,
that Your will is done in both heaven and earth.
I choose today to walk in faith
that You will provide todays bread to me,
that You will protect me from all attack,
that You will continue to walk with me
through dark places, regardless
of whether I see You in the full moon
or not.
I believe You are merciful and good .
I believe You are beautiful and strong.
I believe You are forgiveness,
grace,
and new life.
I will believe You are omnipotent, omniscient, and fully omnipresent, despite my lack of knowledge of what it might mean that You create or move big rocks. (otherwise, will I believe that You are not within any of these things, but that You are in something far greater than I could comprehend.)
I thank You for Your gifts to me.
I thank You for desert beauty and heat.
I thank You for Your provision through my parents and friends.
I thank You for the depth of character and wisdom You have created within me.
I thank You for cartoons, mailboxes, pants, small flowers, neckties, and moons (and all things random).
I thank You for the cumulus clouds that cloud up the sky from my vision.
I thank You today for Bi-Polar and ADD.
I thank You for their impact on my life and their impact on the lives of those around me.
I thank You for turning my suffering into fine music.
I thank You for turning my shame into power and beauty.
I thank You that in my weakness You are strong.
I thank You that in the midst of darkness light will seem to bite.
I thank You that in the midst of black paint white paint may seem bright.
I thank You that we are a light in this crooked and depraved generation.
I thank You that we are all both bright and shining true.
I thank You that You have chosen for us to represent Your Name to the nations as Your priests.
I thank You that You have given to us all of the Spiritual gifts, withholding nothing, both to allow us to bring glory to Your name and to give us an impact on this world that You love so dearly.
Today, I thank You, Father God.
Today, I thank You, Christ Jesus.
Today, I thank You, Holy Spirit.
The Trinity. Whatever it means.
Be with us today, walk with us in this place.
Convince us that blue moons are worth waiting for,
and that in interims, each moon still shines reflected
with a bright light of the fiery sun.
I thank You, Spirit.
I thank You, Jesus.
I thank You, Father.
Amen,
Amen,
and Amen.
I will thank You forever. Yet,
have mercy and forgive me when I cannot.
And again, I pray, be with us today, walk with us in this place.
Amen. |