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In Response to Karen
by Derek Hugen, 2-4-04
Uggh. How is it that my response to you is almost longer than my initial posting about this? It isn't even like you are really contradicting me that I would have to defend myself. Actually, you are adding on to something I probably either didn't state or else had stated quite poorly. Anyway, yes, I very much agree with your statement. Actually, later on his book, Nouwen talks about celibacy,
I dare to say that celibacy is, first of all, a witness to all those who are married. I wonder if we have explored enough the very important relationship between marriage and celibacy.
You also said,
To truly understand the concept of oneness, we must walk into singleness (rather than try to hide in it, or attempt to hide from it).
First of all, I'm going to put singleness out there as a form of celibacy. It's not a horrible leap aside from the duration of practice. I much prefer the thought of a celibate life to the "abstinent" life. Celibacy is a concept that entails much more than simply "abstaining" until the right time for sex. So, I would really like to take a look at these statements.
Of course, they are a great argument against the "graduation" from the singles group at church and proceeding into the young couples group (I think that's what it is, I never got that far though), even though I know you are quite fond of the practice of splitting up friendships based on life stage (and please note that this statement is dripping with ironic tension). It also raises the bar for those who are single from simply "killing time" until marriage (when all life begins), to having to be single "well" as a witness to those around us, especially to those who are married. I think it goes back to the previous quote of our sexual desires being a "manifestation of God's unconditional love." As I said before, I am still uncomfortable with these two things being so closely intertwined, but I am trying to walk into it.
Nouwen talks about the relationship between celibacy and marriage. I wonder at the absence of being single "well" and the stereotypes regarding the single life. Freedom. A different sexual partner every night. The ability to sit in front of the Playstation 2 all night eating Cheetos and drinking Pepsi (although this may not be as potent a draw for women, it is actually the dream life of many men). This starts to trivialize the institution of marriage as well. Why be sanctified, pure, and disciplined in marriage when those around you who are single have no responsibilities at all? Even within the church, I can just go out for coffee after church and hang out with my friends, whereas Russ must get a special dispensation from Emily to do such a thing. Being married comes with slightly narrowed options and the inability to be "carefree." It takes a lot of discipline to walk into marriage successfully, as opposed to being single, which is sort of just there.
Of course, all of this works the other way as well. There is no point in being celibate, as opposed to a carefree bachelor, if the marriage bed has been corrupted and is meaningless. But there is nothing I can do about marriage from my end, other than to learn to respect it and see God in it. I can, however, choose to walk into singleness with true purity and honor, separating myself for God in this period of my life.
I think part of my struggle in having never pursued dating is that I have a skewed perspective of what dating and marriage look like. At some point it becomes an over-idealized Camelot to my mind, and singleness starts to look trivial in comparison. Like reading a Home and Garden magazine while you are living in a cardboard box in an alleyway.
So what does it look like for singleness to receive a place of honor in our hearts? How do we be single well and invite others into that understanding? Well, first of all, we must cut back on the Cheetos and the Playstation 2, I suppose. The good news is that I'm on Atkins, and that my old Playstation broke a few months ago, and I can't afford the Playstation 2. So, the absence of temptation is kind of like a victory over sin, except without the victory over sin.
Beyond that, I guess God (as well as Sheri, my counselor) has told me to start praying for the single women in our community. Take the picture that men should become the spiritual head of their household and should begin to fight in prayer for their wives and children. Then if celibacy is marriage to God, we begin to understand our own family in a much broader view. I need to begin to pray for those in my family who do not necessarily have someone who prays for them regularly.
It has been difficult to walk into this every day, mainly because it is hard for me to dedicate a daily block of time to do it in. I have, however, been trying to dedicate my Sundays to God and to prayer, especially for the community. I'm trying to show up early for church to pray for the service and for the people who will come to it. Last week I went hiking for several hours, spending time praying, meditating, and contemplating rocks (which I know I said I would never do, but there happened to be a devastating shortage of napkins in the vicinity (see my archived poetry for this reference)). Anyway, that is one thing I've been trying to do that has little to do with Cheetos or with "killing time" until marriage.
So what does it look like to walk into singleness or into a "brief stint with celibacy" as a witness to Christ's love for those around us? How do we be single well? What does that look like? With a contemplative gaze I hold out my imaginary microphone. . .
"Karen, your thoughts?"
"Anyone else care to comment?"
Then what is the true power of singleness and of marriage? |