From: clrclady
Date: Mon Feb 20 16:50:24 EST 2012
Subject: Thoughts for the day

Responses russ: No Subject (2/21/12) clrclady: Thanks (2/22/12) Responses (sorted by date) clrclady: Thanks (2/22/12) russ: No Subject (2/21/12) I thought these might be good to share. We all have good things in our lives to be grateful for. Thoughts written during and after my eight mile walk today: High: Dr. Jones was very happy that I was walking. Low: He was very concerned that I had deteriorated so much that I did not feel safe to drive. High: Start a new medication tonight on top of everything else that might help me sleep for the five days for at least 6 hours each day. Low: Been on a pattern of several days little to no sleep, one good night, then little to no sleep again; also I am now on enough medication to put down a small horse. High: I have walked about 21.5 miles since Friday morning. Low: Got three blisters today on my little toes; need to start balancing walking with swimming at the gym. High: Mexican Poppies are in season growing in lots of places. Low: People litter way to much: Stop it all ready, there are lots of garbage cans around; I know because I passed and used many of them. High: I was not run over by a car today. Low: Some people drive like crazy in this town. High: I have gotten lots of Vitamin D. Low: I have a terrible Farmers tan. High: I ran into Andrea at JoAnn’s and could redeem some stuff from last night. Low: I had to leave before she did because they were so crowded and noisy I was starting to have a panic attack. Thank You God For: • A healthy strong body that is able to exercise • Two arms and two legs • Nice weather • Everything I need or want within walking distance from my house • Good friends willing to drive me or pick me up places • Music and downloadable sermons and books (and my MP3 play that can play all day) • Movement of walking and dancing to keep me somewhat sane • The recently new “gift” shoes • A safe place to live even if it has downsides; it is really good • Fun things to cook and fresh veggies to use • Good size house and church to clean if needed • An inexpensive Smartphone even if I cannot work it right all the time • Time off work to heal even if I do not like it because I am stubborn and want to be fixed right now • A wise psychiatrist who has known me for 14 years and seen me through much worse. • A sound mind and medication to make it so • What sleep I have gotten • Friends who love me and are not like my birth parents; these friends are safe and compassionate • The ability to write and type and my gift computer • That I am safe, loved, and valuable to You regardless of what people think of me or the crazy looks they give me • Thank You that it is okay to be me no matter what that looks like • That Your Son’s death and resurrection covers all evil even the evil that I do and makes it good • Shaded bus benches that I can use to rest even though I am not taking the bus • Cheap places that have food I can eat because I keep forgetting to bring food • My back pack • Place that will give me free ice and water in my 52oz QT cup • That all I need to remember right now is the next step to keep me safe and to promote rest and sleep • Thank You that the homeless guy stole my bike because if I had it now I would probably kill myself on it and walking is so much better for me • For Baths and all the fun bath things I got for Christmas, along with lavender lotion, sleep tea, and a cozy dog • Thank you that you have put me in this great place to be which is so much further from the place I was 12 years ago that was just this bad but I was on no medication and going down instead of trying to take care of myself.

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From: russ
Date: Tue Feb 21 11:28:22 EST 2012
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From: clrclady
Date: Tue Feb 21 19:04:45 EST 2012
Subject: Thanks