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From: clrclady Date: Tue Feb 7 23:30:01 EST 2012
Subject: Birthday Card
Got the annual Birthday Card today;
It comes every year without fail.
I opened it this time;
Have not done that for years.
It changed from those years ago when it was sent;
Simple words an appearance that it too would be trashed.
It came from those who birthed me.
Parents that I have long left behind;
I was reminded, “You have no idea what they have gone through.”
I have no idea what anyone has gone through these last eight years;
No clue the struggle, damage, sacrifices
That was made for me to be sitting here.
This community and house that surrounded me
When I had nothing and life was so dark. . . .
These people who raised me next to the people who birthed me.
It was not all bad; it was not all a horrible nightmare.
Nothing seems black and white right now;
I cannot find the right or wrong.
Every action, every word has a consequence;
I pray that I will not make the wrong move,
And yet there is just freedom;
Maturity comes with insight and clarity;
It comes with responsibility and expectations.
I love this community and pray I will always be surrounded by it,
But I love these people that birthed me as well.
What we do with foster children seems so unclear now.
I do not know the answers;
I am extremely ungrateful;
I am extraordinarily selfish;
I am completely fallen.
More and more I realize that I need God more than ever;
More and more I come to see how wretched I am.
I made a call tonight to reassure my family.
I would have never made it before today;
It would have destroyed me years ago.
Now, I am just sad.
Sad for those who have not been as fortunate as I;
Sad for those who are still in the darkness;
Sad that I cannot do anything about it.
Hopeful that He will bring good out of all evil. |
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