Andrea,
I just got my username/password from Russell after your blog a few days ago so that I could let you know (in writing)how so very proud I am of you. You are so much stronger in your spiritual journey than I have been during the battles I face with the challenges in my life. I know that the ultrasound results and the continued cycle of medical barriers to a pregnancy are heartbreaking for both you and Ryan. I know that I can't feel the same kind of pain and disappointment with this continued roller coaster of hope and loss, but I hope you know that I am here for you just to listen, cry, scream, vent, etc. I wish I could take away your pain and grant you a wish of fertility and a normal pregnancy, but we know that isn't mine to grant. You said you know that God knows the big picture and we have to continue to hold fast to that knowledge. I keep thinking if you had been given the gift of a "normal" pregnancy, I never would have been introduced to a beautiful niece named Ellen Louise...and we all know the story of how Ellie came to be your child is nothing short of a miracle!!! At times like these, I wish so much that we lived closer together so I could watch Ellie grow up, help you and Ryan with her, be a shoulder to cry, motivate each other in a healthy lifestyle, etc...but just know that even though there is miles separating us, my heart is right next to yours and my prayers are lifting you up.
I love you, Sis!!!
Tammy |