Hi,
I, too, look forward to seeing Bentley. And you all! This year I realized that I am grateful for the 'gift' of pain. It doesn't seem like much of a gift, but I have discovered new things about God and experienced his love in much deeper and more intimate ways. In some ways I can better identify with Jesus as I live with a little suffering. I also get to learn to be more dependent on God and the community. I'm not the big, strong man who can do anything (I never really was) and I have learned to experience the scorn of people watching my little wife lift heavy weights while I stand and watch. I have had the privilege of choosing to be served instead of serving. I have begun to learn the reality that hidden handicaps are hard to bear, because people doubt you and misunderstand you, and because you grow weary of explaining it over and over again and so you stop explaining and just receive the label of 'lazy' or 'too good to help' or 'jerk', all of which I have been called in the past year when I was not able to physically do something. It makes me think of the way Jesus was, and is, labeled with derogatory accusations: "He saves others, but himself he can not save.' It also helps me more deeply to identify with those who suffer from chronic illness or pain. So, in a strange way, I am grateful for the lessons of pain.
Rod |