If I were perfect, then I think that I would be able to clearly see how the two are the same thing. God is constantly in motion into our lives, to restore us, to restore relationship, and to make us more like Him. Sometimes, that takes the form of Him providing for our salvation; sometimes, it takes the form of Him instructing us in the practicality of a moral existence.
The point, of course, is never morality in isolation: we are not trying to live up to some abstract, distant standard. The point is always to be more like God in our every moment and every motivation. That requires both empowerment from God, centered at the cross, and disciplined labor, centered on the Sermon on the Mount.
The problem for me is that I always overstate my role. I was raised with the belief that God alone could save us...but that we could live a terrible, shameful life despite our salvation. It was a strange mix of save-by-grace and save-by-works. I'm coming to realize that my gospel has been "Live as close to a perfect life as you can, and the Cross will make up for the little you mess up."
God is teaching me that it has to all be about Him. Even my labors are, somehow, not my labors at all, but Him working within me. I don't understand it, yet. My old "gospel" still screeches inside my head, wagging its finger and promising shame if I screw up. It loves to quote the most dire Scriptures at me. I worry that I will switch over to the other extreme: "I am saved, and thus there are no imperatives which bind me."
But I really see God a work in my life here...I have confidence, despite my worries, that He is crafting something inside me. I'm looking forward to seeing what exactly it will be. |