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From: Mike_Wise
Date: Mon Feb 27 11:22:22 EST 2012 Subject: What do you do when you feel like you're drowning?

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When it rains it pours
And it it pours it overflows, pools over, the water rushes everywhere.
You can get lost in it if you are not careful. Like a hopeful apostle approaching his savior if you look sideways, if you give any credence to the idea that you're walking above the water it can suck you in.
It can pull you under.
You can get swept beneath the undertow, held under. How long can you hold your breath?
10 seconds?
45 seconds?
3 hours?
2 weeks?
5 years?
When it rains it pours
I wait expectantly on the promise of my God who has stated he'll deliver me
I wait expectantly on the promise of my God though the earth is breaking down on me
I wait expectantly on the promise of my God when the skies are black and I can't see
I kneel face down in the midst of quicksand to pray
I could lose my life
my life and my body
my life and body and mind
I could lose my life and body and mind and soul in the hell of my own creating.
As I breathe in
Inhale the air and mud and grit. as my lungs burn and my mind and heart races I wait expectantly on my God
"Be Still"
The water pools
"...and know that I am God"
The earth gives way
"Be still.... and know that I am God"
for thine is the kingdom
the power
the glory
"Be Still.... and know that I am God"
for thine is my brokenness,
my life,
and my story
forever
.......and ever

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From: Mike_Wise
Date: Mon Feb 27 11:35:56 EST 2012 Subject:

I wrote this poem as a reflection of things that are currently going on in our life.
I mostly tried to get a sense of how overwhelmed I am feeling by things that are going on.
The earth and mud and quicksand all represent current situations
The water represents change
Corrie has up until now been receiving an SSDI benefit which she was told she could receive while working. She was told this by a social worker, we gave them records of our income they okayed her for the benefit and we've been receiving it. Not long ago she was told she might not be eligible for it. If that's not change enough this last Friday we received a letter not only stating she was no longer able to receive the money but she was also over payed. Now they are asking us to pay by $25,000. That's not a typo. She is sending off a request for waiver today because this is clearly not our fault. Still if that doesn't go through, I don't quite know what we will do or what this will do to us.
I was actually handling this decently for most of the weekend, until last night after church. Corrie's car wouldn't start. Jeff has it now and I'm just praying that whatever is wrong is fairly minor and not a big deal. We don't have a lot of money so we drive old cars. Hers is a '94. My Jeep is a '96. We have some savings and we just added to that thanks to getting a refund for taxes but it has been the hope of course to use that money t get our own place. So we can live independently and also so that we could become adoptive parents.
We're not getting any younger....
Today on my drive home I asked God to protect us. I reminded him of all of the examples that have recently been pointed out to me of his providence in my life even when it didn't seem like he was there. I told him that I would do my best to trust and wait expectantly for him to claim victory over all of this. I told him how what I wanted most was to be able to tell my unbelieving friends of this moment in our lives, and how God did what no one else could do and how he delivered us from trouble.
Now all I can do is wait and pray.
I wonder if some of you would stand with me and pray as well?
I love you guys so very much,

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From: rodhugen
Date: Mon Feb 27 12:28:11 EST 2012 Subject: Amen

Amen!

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