Wow last night was a real blast. I am sorry that Russ had a car issue that is always horrible and I hope he has his car running again but I love how God can use even horrible situations like that as a means to answer prayer.
I've been asking God a lot lately how he could use me and wondering why he would want to. I feel so messed up and I have so many doubts and despite encouraging words from everyone I feel many times that I will not be a good asset to God's kingdom. God spoke in a big way by allowing me to do a little thing. There was a need at church last night because Russ was not able to make it so they needed someone to play drums. I played back in HS but sold my drum set when I was 19 So needless to say I was out of practice. Needless to say I was ok to jam but when the idea of me actually playing in the service came up man was I nervous but I felt the leading of the holy spirit and I said ok.
Was it a flawless performance> Heck no I made several mistakes but Sue and Corey didn't seem to mind. I haven't heard from Charlie what he though of my performance it is, after all, his band. I have a feeling when his review comes out it will say something like "Good Grief"
I love that I still have that seance of rhythm inside of me, I certainly consider myself more of a singer than a drummer but any chance I get to do something with music is a blessing for me, it's when I am in my true element. I felt good playing the drums especially around such talented musicians. It was a good night and I am so glad everyone who was there was a part of it. Thank you for everyone who had an encouraging word to say to me afterward. I am glad you liked my playing. I love how I am beginning to feel that this church is family especially after such a short period of time.
Just consider me your red headed stepchild
Mike |