This is a tough one to write about.
I honestly cannot tell you completly what I think and feel about the Doctrine of hell and the doctrine of endless punishment. I can tell you it is my issues with this docrtine that was one of the reasons I left the church in the first place.
There are many Christians who believe that those who are not saved at the time of their death will be sent to the lake of fire forever and will be brutally tortured forever. Will cry and scream and be brutalized forever. Will hunger thirst and be fearful FOREVER!
Maybe its true but it doesn't line up with what I have come to know as the character of God.
The Character of God that I have seen both in the bible and in the glimpses I have seen of him in my own life are that of a father who wants the absolute best for his kids. Now of course being human we mess us and sometimes there is need for correction. I think God does allow us to go through hell even here on earth and I suspect that 'eternity' will be no different. I am not foolish enough to believe that everyone will come to belief by the end of their time on earth and person God will allow people to go through some punishment after we die but in the end doesn't the Bible say that every knee will bow and every tongue confess that Jesus is lord? Would that be a forced confession? Or will eventually every soul ever created come to know the healing power of the God of this world? I don't know
My soul cries daily for answers on this, true honest answers that don't come from dogma or human's influence on the bible and the movement of Christianity and I am constantly led to verses and ideas that show me that God is working his good pleasure in the world and his redemptive plan IS FOR ALL! I am also finding that even hinting at that idea is not popular at all. I don't know I cannot imagine a heaven without people I love and care about being there and not everyone I love is Christian and I cannot know if they ever will be. For ten years I was not a Christian for 10 years I felt hurt and betrayed by the God that created me, for many years before that even though I loved God with all I was I felt like he didn't love me. I felt that he was ashamed of me. That I was some sort of joke he put on the face of the earth for others to laugh at. I imagined myself going to hell because for whatever reason my salvation didn't take and the hell I imagined wasn't fire it was much worse. It was an inky thick darkness that you were constantly aware of. No one else was there just you alone in this inky fog of nothingness. The void.
No I don't have any answers I wish I could say I knew God's heart on this matter but I don't I feel like if I say I believe, or hope for universal reconciliation that people will refuse to accept me as a Christian. My fears about hell not only for myself but for other people I love make me feel very isolated and alone.
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