I could relate to the New Year's resolution post, Rod. A couple of people on New Year's Eve challenged me to claim something for the new year, whether a Bible verse or a resolution. Nothing wrong with those ideas, per se, so why have I always rebelled against this notion of new take on a new year? In part because the change of the date seems so artificial, arbitrary. There's nothing concretely, nothing organically different about Jan 1 versus Dec 31. So I struggle to relate to the "today's the day to start a change" thing. And the not-wanting-to-fail thing sucks, too. Rather than look ahead, what I want to do is think back on the previous year, something I historically have done with a touch of melancholy/cynicism, so I'm working on reviewing yearly events with a less cynical/Eeyorish tint in my glasses. How about a little less Eeyore in 2005? My junior high/high school friend Wendi always *has* referred to me as Pooh....perhaps Pooh is my True Nature... when I'm not acting like Eowyn or someone sword-brandishing...or maybe I have several True Natures?
OK, without getting too personal/specific, my New Year's longing is to continue to embrace the longings of 2004. And to continue to become the Pooh-Eowyn I was meant to be. My longings this year are to find more honey, to avoid getting stung by honeybees, to slay some Nazgul lord and live to tell about it, and even to find a Faramir, if supernaturally possible. |