I'm remembering my mother, when I was a teenager, describing me once as a leader. I was like, *say what??** I was a shy introvert who was always behind the scenes, in the corner. Now I've been leading a classroom for almost 8 years and am just becoming comfortable w/the teacher-leadership identity. I've been in Village leadership for, I don't know, two years now? And I was shocked last November to step onto a spiritual battlefield, turn around, and then actually see friends alongside me. I'm not a leader/warrior because of me, I'm a leader/warrior because God has put me in places of leadership, and it's an awkward role to grow into, much of the time, but I can't say it's all in all a bad one.
Experiencing an identity in Christ is a bit like, well, evolving into an adolescent body--it's yours, all right, although it doesn't quite feel like it, a bit foreign, scary but also exciting. And you will get used to it. You'll grow into it. So take care of it, make good choices with it, and thereby embrace it. |