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From: Boojeee
Date: Wed Mar 10 16:37:07 MST 2004 Subject: Daddy?

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mike: stories (3/12/04)
Karen: Tom Bradley anecdote #1 (3/12/04)
MaryKay: A rare memory (3/13/04)
mike: Abba (3/18/04)
Karen: More Tom anecdotes (3/22/04)
Suki: My Dad (3/25/04)
rodhugen: memories (3/26/04)
russ: At last, I find something (5/15/04)
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russ: At last, I find something (5/15/04)
rodhugen: memories (3/26/04)
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Karen: More Tom anecdotes (3/22/04)
mike: Abba (3/18/04)
MaryKay: A rare memory (3/13/04)
Karen: Tom Bradley anecdote #1 (3/12/04)
mike: stories (3/12/04)
My dad died when I was 2. Then, when I was 10, I got a sucky, abuser, step-dad. So, as I was wrestling with the way not having a dad and having a sucky one affected my sense of self, Sue told me a couple really great stories about being loved really well by her dad. I found this to strike a deep-longing chord that sounded sadness and hope in good, resonant way. So, I thought there might be some of you who had good--albeit not perfect--dads who might share a happy memory with me to help me understand what my heart longed for back then and even now. [I didn't want to share your stories, Sue, but if you're willing, I'd encourage you to post them.] And, I thought, maybe some of you who like me have no good dad image, might benefit as well from hearing some of these stories.

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From: mike
Date: Thu Mar 11 19:45:18 MST 2004 Subject: stories

I wanna hear some of Sue's stories about her dad, and anyone else's stories about loving parents. Those are cool stories, and do me a world of good. By the way, I love watching the interaction of healthy families. That includes the Brunsons.

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From: Karen
Date: Fri Mar 12 11:03:18 MST 2004 Subject: Tom Bradley anecdote #1

I wrote this last year, about my first (and only) serious, um, vehicular incident.

"Eastbound to Omaha"

On road trips, my father has always been edgy when he wasn’t behind the wheel. In July 1987, our destination was southwestern Iowa, the birthplace of my youngest sister Sarah and the first home I can remember. It was an important trip, a first return visit to see good friends at our old home and the farthest we had traveled in years. We had borrowed the Chevy Impala, the company car, having long since outgrown the tiny Dodge Omni, our only vehicle. Traveling three days, we passed through Arizona, Colorado, and most of Nebraska before Dad offered me a turn in the driver’s seat.

It was the first time I had driven my entire family anywhere, but I had been licensed for over a year, had driven to Phoenix and back more than once, and therefore had no reason to be nervous heading east towards Omaha in the comfortable traffic of I-80. For over an hour, I maintained the speed limit, slowly passing car after car, while Mom and my two younger sisters wandered in their thoughts and while Dad drowsily slipped in and out of consciousness in the backseat.

As we approached Omaha, the freeway diverged unexpectedly. I steered toward the left fork, calling back, “Which way do I go? Which way?”

Dad jerked his head up, shouting, “The other way!”

Unfortunately, I obeyed his delayed command, suddenly veering right, too late to be successful at it. Panicking in the swerve, I slammed the brakes and then fishtailed for several interminable seconds across two lanes. My youngest sister screamed as we were abruptly stopped by the steel guard rail designed to keep us from even greater distress at the bottom of the hill.

Oh, no. What’s Dad gonna to do to me? That must be the first thought in the mind of every teenage girl the moment after her first accident, the second thought being, Thank God, no one’s head made contact with the windshield. Sarah’s still screaming, she must be OK.

Dad forcefully roused us from the car, jutting dangerously across half a lane of 60 MPH traffic. I unfastened my faithful seatbelt and wandered onto the grassy shoulder, bracing myself for more tire squeals and clashing metal sounds, although somehow none came. Good Samaritan #1 stopped to help push the car’s broken body out of harm’s way. Meanwhile, car after car merged over and back gently, safely.

As the adrenaline faded, I began to survey the damage. Several feet of metal were crunched like a sheet of rigid paper around the left front wheel. It would be impossible to steer the car, assuming it would move at all. Radiator fluid was forming an ugly pool, and our cartop carrier cables had snapped upon impact, although fortunately, the container had held shut when it was launched onto the freeway’s shoulder. Inside the car, the baby saguaro I had brought as a gift for a friend, had been flung headlong across the back seat and was lying in a puddle of its own dirt. Why is Dad so calm? It wasn’t an eerie calm, but a true calm, a Mr. Rogers-impossible sort of calm. When is he going to lose it? Is our vacation over already? How on earth are we going to get to Iowa?

It was in the days before cell phones, but a trucker had stopped and radioed for the police. What’s the cop going to do to me? I was too overcome by remorse to feel fear, but it was comforting when an elderly man in uniform arrived. I had never even seen a Grandfather Cop before. He escorted me into his cruiser so that we could have a private conversation, removed from my sister’s continuing hysteria. “Tell me how it happened.”

Holding back tears, I told the truth, revealing my responsibility and total incompetence. The officer gently reminded me of the importance of pumping the brakes. His ballpoint skimmed the surface of the ticket form until he found a box to settle on, the box next to the lowest dollar amount, seventy-five dollars: “Improper Lane Change.”

“The truth is, I could call it Reckless Driving, but that’s a $250 fine,” he sighed. “You know what not to do now, and it won’t happen again.” He spoke with the gentleness of a prophet offering blessing, not punishment, as he handed me the ticket.

When I rejoined my family outside the car, I noticed Good Samaritan #2, a young man who had pulled his RV to the shoulder. His family was just returning from a weekend camping trip, and he explained that he was a trained welder with equipment in the garage at his house, only a mile off the next freeway exit. Minutes later, the man returned with ropes and chains for towing, and not long afterward, his wife was serving us cool lemonade in their living room. We drank it gratefully, watching her small daughters play happily with their toys while outside, my father observed the kind stranger’s first aid to the Impala.

As two hours passed, it became evident that the surgery on the radiator would be successful, and the men also decided that the front section of the car, badly disfigured, was nevertheless road-worthy: nothing that a few passes of the welder and a solid, well-tied rope couldn’t handle. Dad’s years as a Boy Scout were coming in handy, and it dawned on me that my father was never going to scold. When he finally said we would be leaving soon for Iowa, he surprised me by saying, “It was partly my fault.”

In the middle of the afternoon, we climbed back into the car. I had rescued the fallen baby saguaro, scooping the soil gently back around the roots, praying that even the cactus would survive the ordeal, restoring it to the sunny spot on the back dash. Our two-week vacation began again as my father took his favorite seat in the car and paid no heed to the disparaging looks other drivers gave us as we passed them, broken but not broken-down on I-80, eastbound from Omaha.

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From: MaryKay
Date: Sat Mar 13 16:16:36 MST 2004 Subject: A rare memory

My childhood didn't have many moments that produced happy memories but there is one about my dad when I was about 6 years old that I can share. He wasn't home much but when he was I loved to be as close to him as I could. I'd follow him around and help him wash the car or do yard work. There usually wasn't much physical touch between us but I remember one evening while he was watching television I asked him if I could brush his hair. He was very tall and the only way I could reach his head was for him to sit on the floor and for me to climb into the chair behind him. He sat there for the longest time letting me brush away. I seem to remember hearing him say ouch more than once but he let me continue until I got tired and stopped. There was an intimatacy between us that evening that was new to me and brought joy to my little heart. I can't remember ever feeling closer to him than I did that evening.
Mary Kay

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From: mike
Date: Wed Mar 17 21:03:43 MST 2004 Subject: Abba

I do not have any positive stories about my earthly dad. In a very real sense, God is my father. He has been teaching me the things Dad should have taught me.
God was protecting me and loving me the way dad should have since I was a child. I was so busy trying to survive, and being angry at God, I did not see it untill much later.
In the summer my family took our annual vacation to Colorado, where mom was from. On one such trip, ( I do not remember how old I was, around ten I think) Mom produced a bag of carmel candy. In that bag was one choclate carmel toward the middle of the bag. I prayed I get that piece of candy, then thought "God does not care if I get that choclate carmel." Mom handed me the choclate carmel. As I sat and marveled at the miracle, a voice in my head said " I love you, and I care."
When I think about God's love for me, how he really is a father to me, I think of that piece of choclate carmel, and how God did love me even back then.

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From: Karen
Date: Mon Mar 22 16:37:20 MST 2004 Subject: More Tom anecdotes

When I was three-four years old, my dad loved to tease me with the Cookie Monster puppet. He would gobble up "Dolly" (my security rag doll, who was my 24-7 companion at home and on those long car trips), and I would scream in mock terror.

When I was five, he made green scrambled eggs, in honor of Dr. Seuss of course. I didn't even like scrambled eggs back then, but I was delighted anyway.

A while after Dad started to follow Christ, he took me to one of those outdoor "Jesus movement" concerts in Spencer, IA's little city park. (They were the Good News Singers, for those of you old enough to remember Christian culture in the 70's! They sang that "Love Him in the Morning Song," Emily McC!) God had already been pulling me in his direction that year, through both of my young-in-the-faith parents, and through my first grade teacher. When Dad asked me if I wanted to go forward at the "invitation" time, I did. (The rest, as they say, is history...)

The next year, during one of many consecutive financially lean years, his great-uncle Craw Edmonds sent him $500 and told him to spend it "on the kids." Dad asked me what I wanted, and with only few seconds' hesitation, I said (thinking, might as well shoot for the moon, kid), "A piano....?" (I didn't even know anyone who played one.) How strange and wonderful that we ended up with the piano that way.

When I was a teenager, I felt unpleasantly isolated from my dad. (Yep, it only gradually dawned on me that this was practically a universal experience, no reflection on my personal merit, etc. etc.) Other than that car accident experience, he really came through for me on two occasions in my teen years.

My parents couldn't afford any kind of extravagant 16th birthday party for me, but the night after my birthday, Dad took me out to an expensive restaurant. I put on a pretty dress my grandma had made me for the day, had prime rib for the first time, and was *served wine* at the restaurant(woo-hoo!). Later that evening, he dropped me off at a high school Valentine's dance where I met a dangerous, albeit quite attractive, guy. It was only a year or so ago that I finally made the connection between my dad's kind treatment of me and my ability to hear God's wisdom that night.

Finally, when I was eighteen years old, a group of students from my high school wanted to drive up to Tonopa, NV, over the weekend to camp out in the desert to protest at the nuclear testing facility there. My parents weren't comfortable with sending their teenagers off to God-knows-what-kind-of-protest situation an eight hour drive away. Dad amazed me by offering to go up as a chaperone (for a cause he didn't even believe in), and to even assume temporary weekend "legal custody" of a foster kid from my school. So it was Dad, Heather Nolan (yeah, that would be Jack's daughter), Andrew McClelland, my sister Diane and I, driving late into Friday night in the cold Nevada desert. Button-down accountant Dad actually got a kick out of mingling with the counter-culture liberals at the protest that weekend. And I ended up with several amusing notes in my yearbook that year, "You're dad's pretty cool for a Republican." (!!)

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From: Suki
Date: Wed Mar 24 17:41:53 MST 2004 Subject: My Dad

Okay… so my dad worked a lot when I was growing up. He had 2 jobs and my mom worked part time during the school year but spent all sorts of time with us kids. Still, I have an affectionate relationship with my dad, and a few specific memories stand out. One time my mom was fuming mad about something. I don’t recall what it was. But she had stopped talking to me. I found my dad sitting in his chair in the kitchen and told him what was going on. He scooped me up in his big arms and held me on his lap. End of snapshot. Sometimes I look back at that now when somebody's mad at me and consider how perhaps Jesus is holding me on his lap.
I remember my brother and I going swimming with my dad. He’d pick us up in the shallow end, 3 feet above the water (he was 6’5”) and throw us in. He’d wrestle with us, tossing us around like a big bear and laughing. He was the amusement ride. I recall him walking out of the pool with scratches on his back because I'd dug into it with my little fingernails. He didn't seem to mind.
In junior high the dad of someone who was an acquaintance at the time killed himself. I was totally astonished. I cried my brains out. I had never met the man and barely knew his daughter. But it was devastating. I came home still crying, and my dad met me at the door to give me a big hug. He held me and told me he would never do anything like that. Not that I had thought he would. But it was one of the times that he spoke clearly into my world the message: "I will never go away."
Alright… then there’s the time I had the flu. I was really nauseous. So I was sitting on dad’s lap on the couch, my mom next to us, and he tried to feed me a cup of hot water to calm my stomach down. I swallowed the first sip and totally hurled all over him and the couch. Oh well. He never gave me hot water again. But he wasn’t disturbed about it, either. Just cleaned up and moved on. Which is kind of funny, because he had a serious gag reflex and avoided the bathroom at all costs if one of us was puking.
My dad had a red 1963 VW bug with small sideboards. Sometimes my brother and I would wait in front of a dark shop (it was always after 5) at the end of our alley for him to drive by on his way home from work. Then he'd let us stand on the sides of his car while he drove through the alley to our carport. One time he was upset because we waited for him out there until after sunset. He was quite safety conscious.
I used to sit next to him in church on Sundays. I have absolutely no recollection of the sermons, but I do remember him taking my pinkie and squeezing it between two of his fingers so that the image from his class ring would get printed on my finger.
So these are some photos from my Dad album.

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From: rodhugen
Date: Fri Mar 26 06:57:30 MST 2004 Subject: memories

When I was a kid on the farm in Iowa I loved to go with my Dad on the tractor out to the field. My mother told me I couldn't go, but I wiggled under the yard gate and ran to the tractor and my Dad scooped me up and held me on the seat and let me 'drive'. He even taught me how to shift and would guide my hand into the correct gear. When we got to the field my mom would have to come with the car and take me back home. She would complain to him and he would laugh and tell her he had needed the help of his 'hired hand'. When my Dad would milk the cows in the evening, all the cats would line up just across the gutter and every once in a while he would send a squirt of milk their way. They never let a drop hit the ground. Sometimes they would sneak across the gutter trying to gain advantage and my Dad would slip his foot under their belly and toss them back across the gutter. I saw him flip cats through the barn window and they would race around and get back in so they could get milk. It was like he had them trained. I always thought he was magical.

I used to laugh because we had a mean, stubborn cow named Brindle and Dad would say, "Watch this!" to us kids and just as my Mom came through the barn door he would pretend he was mad at the cow and call it 'Bernice' which is my Mom's name and he would wink at us and my Mom would throw straw at him and we would all laugh and get in a big hay fight.

On most Saturday nights (in the days before TV), the family would gather in the front room. During the week we weren't allowed in the front room because it was where the good furniture was and my three siblings and I were hard on furniture. But the front room also contained the piano and we would gather to sing. Mom played and sang and my older sister, Miriam, would sit next to her on the bench. There was a big arm chair in the room that matched the couch. The arm chair had large flat arms and dad would sink back in it. My brother Mark, and I sat on opposite arms and my dad would wrap his long arms around us and gather us close and we would sing. My Mom sang old cowboy songs and lots of gospel hymns and always sang these goofy children songs that even when we got too old, were fun to sing. On some of the songs, my Dad had memorized the bass part. Like me, he had trouble singing harmony and sometimes he would hit a wrong note and would laugh and pretty soon we were all giggling. When he laughed or sang, he would squeeze my brother and me close and I can still feel those arms wrapped around me and the smell of Old Spice and the warmth and the low rumbling voice. I would try to sing as low as he did, but I never could.

Mom usually finished the night with the song 'Old Shep' and it always made us cry and I remember Dad hugging us when we got teary eyed. I remember falling asleep on the arm of that chair and getting carried up to bed. All seemed to be good and right in the world. I still experience the presence of God as warm arms wrapping around me. When we had people singing harmony outside the Village on Sunday nights it was sacred time for me and I was transported back to the farm.

Other kids often seemed scared of Dad. He had dark eyes and black hair and he was tall and gaunt and kids thought he was mean looking. I could never understand that because my experience was that he was funny and knew how to do stuff I could never figure out. I do remember him frowning at me when I did bad stuff and telling me he expected better of me. It was the worst punishment - knowing you had not measured up to Dad's expectations. I don't remember getting spanked, but Mom tells me he did that on a few occasions. I do remember when he slapped my face once at the dinner table because I said something very inappropriate to my mom. I leaned back to avoid getting hit and the chair legs gave away and I fell over in a heap. Dad ran around the table and I think he thought he had killed me. He was so sorry and I remember being confused because what I had done was bad and he had punished me and he was saying "I'm sorry" instead of me.

He would get very sick as his empysema progressed, but he would always laugh and would make all these witty remarks when people would talk to him. When people asked how he felt, he would always answer, "With my fingers." It would make people stop and laugh and then he would share his struggles with them. I remember when he told me that he wasn't going to live as long as other dads and I remember wondering why and he told me that he had ruined his lungs and that it was going to be harder and harder for him to breathe. During the last few years of his life he was on oxygen and they had 'medical' oxygen bottles that were very expensive. He talked to the people who delivered the 'medical' oxygen and asked how it was differnt than the industrial oxygen. The company that sold the oxygen admitted that they filled both tanks from the same source, but that the medical bottles were cleaned up and painted. Dad ordered industrial oxygen from then on and he taught me to bleed the tank and hook up the regulator and I felt important becuase it was scary to hear all the racket when you bled the tank and it seemed like he trusted me to do something hard. My Mom was scared to do it so it made me feel like a real man. I overheard him tell a friend about his 'industrial' oxygen. He told the man that the bigger tanks were harder to handle, but that Rod was getting big enough and strong enough to handle it. I liked that he thought I was strong.

Rod

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From: russ
Date: Fri May 14 21:34:56 MST 2004 Subject: At last, I find something

I grew up practically worshipping my parents. My parents stayed together (and are still together); there was no abuse, not even the more subtle types like verbal or emotional abuse. My parents were loving, supportive, and overall Good Parents.

My view of life gradually changed as I became more and more immersed in the philosophy of the Village. My view of my parents changed as my life values changed. There are a number of things that make the Village very distictive, but my parents are very good in a very conventional way.

So, when you posted your first question, Julie, I immediately clicked the link to post a response...but then quickly found that I had nothing to say. I couldn't find anything that I wanted to say, anything where I could unequivocally say that I like the parents loved me. I wish I knew how to describe how that felt. Suffice to say it was painful.

God has answered, though! I was talking with Emily about her experience growing up. She didn't feel protected, and we're just starting to see how that has fed into a fear that tries to control her even today. But what I found there was that my parents - particularly my dad - had given me something that I enjoy totally without qualification or doubt, and I want to share it here.

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My dad is a big man. He was a linebacker (lineman?) in high school football, a decorated vet in Vietnam, and he is still an imposing presence in his fifties. I always knew, from my earliest childhood up to today, that all of that strength, force, and will was dedicated to my protection. I was convinced that my dad was the strongest, most resourceful person in the world. He was a Great Bear who stood between me and any danger. He would do anything, pay any cost, fight any terrible fight, that was necessary to protect me from danger. And perhaps most importantly, I was utterly convinced that he, once engaged in battle, could never lose. He was he greatest human Power in existence, and nothing could get past him to do me any harm.

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